But seeing my bare head in the mirror isn't very appealing. Sort of Jean Luc Piccard, only with an old woman's face. Hats help quite a bit, and I've discovered that double wrapping scarves over hats or other scarves gives me the bulk that I miss without my "big hair."
One of my daughters (K), has requested that she never have to see me without a hat/scarf/covering. The other wanted to see it immediately upon me arriving home from the hair dresser's. She looked kind of sad, but didn't cry and managed to smile ruefully.
Oh, and I forgot to say that my head is now all velcro-like! Some of the hair is still hanging in there and so I have a lot of little spikees on my head. I can feel them under my hats, catching on the fabric. That is weird. I assume that most of them will also fall out, but at least they won't be as long or as noticeable.
I know that some women get quite comfortable and walk around with their bare heads. I'm certainly not to that point right now -- in fact, I had an unpleasant vision of some kids thinking that it might be fun to snatch off my hat in church. It's also the middle of a rather cold winter here in GJ, so I can't imagine going out in the 15 degree weather without a hat.
I wonder how long it will be before I have hair again? I am guessing that it will probably take at least 2 months after the last chemo (mid February). And even then it will be a couple months before I have as much as an inch of hair. Longer? So, it will be warm weather again before I have significant hair. We'll see if "we" are able to consider going hatless when it's warm.
Jean Luc Picard, huh? You have gone and forced me to learn something about the Star Trek you young whippersnappers watched, as opposed to the classic Star Trek that we old folks watched.
ReplyDeleteThe velcro part sounds unappealing -- I hope that phase passes soon.
L has a nice rueful smile -- I can just see it.
I remember a Buddhist nun who went without hair. I also remember that I didn't think she looked like a woman. Isn't it interesting how we have images in our heads of what all kinds of people or things should look like. I wonder if we ever get to the point where we just think of the person as a person.
ReplyDeleteYes...walking around Grand Junction in the winter without either a hat or some hair can be a very cool experience, as a lot of us bald men know.
Duane
I have a friend who shaved her head during chemo and decided she had "a fabulous head". It sounded like a very healthy (although possibly difficult to manage) response. I bet you also have a fabulous head. And the fashion possibilities are exciting. I always feel a little overdone in a fancy hat - but this is your opportunity to go for it. Take care, Tara
ReplyDeleteThe additional advantage of the hairless head is that you don't get "hat head," a SIGNIFICANT drawback when one has curly hair. I look great in hats, but I never wanted to sacrifice the curly-headed look. Now I can! :^)
ReplyDeleteAt last I get it!!!! You have been talking about "hat head" for some 40 years, and could never see what the big deal was, being a flat-haired person myself. Hats make very little dent on my hair, since it is already pretty much plastered to my head. But yes, I can see that if you have volume to be dented, hats would dent it. Mystery solved.
ReplyDeleteHey MA,
ReplyDeleteMy sister bought these little winter hats that had bangs and sort of sideburn thingies attached to them so it looked as if she had hair under the hat. Just a thought ...